peach tree

The peach tree
has an unblinking eye

We stand still in time

The cool breeze
has a seeking soul

We stare out across the water

The setting sun
closes its eyes to us

Hand to heart, heart to hand
toes that squish in the sand
Our eyes are open but not seeing
We are searching within our being

Feeling, wishing, dreaming
The peach tree stares on

Are we to stand still forever?
Will this warmth freeze within a frame?
We blink away with the setting sun

The drifting smell of peaches
The distant beat of gentle waves

Where we stood, the footprints lay
washed away, one print at a time day by day

The peach tree moves in the wind
witness to the silence, captivated by the earth

-hoshi

Things never change

it always happens. i say to myself, "wow, itz been a while since it has happened." or "man i can acutally start to take it easy, maybe it is over. maybe it'll never happen again."

and then bam, one mistake, one slip up - and pandora's box has been opened.

it's weird cuz im not afraid, and yet my heart is beating rlly fast and im breaking out into a cold sweat, i also feel like being sick. it makes me sad because that just means that deep within im set to be afraid, and im set to immediatly dislike and react badly to the situation.

he's not gonna come back. i kno that, and yet it still makes me sad. i wonder why.

there's no1 online, itz sad, lonely, and quiet. underneith it all, is that wat the world is rlly like?

i just wanna cry.

but w.e, i gotta learn to be indifferent. if i dont ill only end up destroying myself.

i dun wanna deal wid dis shit.